You Promise by A.L Tan

You promise to let this feeling go.
Then you return for more.
Addicted.

You promise to let this feeling go.
How is it going to go?
You hold on so tightly.

You promise to let this feeling go.
It won't go.
You are not releasing it.

You promise to let this feeling go.
Still you chose to love.
Hoping for the best that will never happen.

You promise to let this feeling go.
One last time, just to satisfy your heart.
Shattering your fragile heart into pieces.

You promise to let this feeling go.
Say it 'I DON'T love you!'.
Silence........

One more try the heart whispers

Goodbye Love by A.L Tan

You.
Only cared because you felt guilty that I fell for you.

Hurts.
Accepting that your love was just an illusion.

Tears.
Knowing you never were mine to begin with.

Sadness.
Realising that you were nice because you knew I love you.

I.
Seriously need to say goodbye because I'm nothing to you.

Goodbye Love.

I Realised by A.L Tan

I know you were there.
You chose not to reply.
You chose not to answer.
You chose to ignore.
I know there's nothing I can do.

Because of guilt
You chose to reply.
You chose to answer.
You chose not to ignore.

Thanks for putting up with me.
I'm sorry for wasting your time.

I Was Stupid by A.L Tan

I was stupid to fall for you.
When all I received were heartaches.

I was stupid to fall for you.
When most replies were okay and haha.

I was stupid to fall for you.
I realised that you couldn't return the love I was giving you.

I was stupid to fall for you.
When I know deep down, you were using me, taking me for granted.

I was stupid to fall for you.
When there were no reasons to love you from the start.

I was stupid to fall for you.
Thinking that you feel the same too.

I was stupid to fall for you.
When you were obviously in love with someone else.

I was stupid to fall for you.
When I know I should let my feelings for you go.

I was stupid to fall for you.
There is nothing in the future for us.

I was stupid to fall for you.
I'm just deeply in love with you.

I Just Do by A.L Tan

I fell in love months ago. 
As usual,  I kept the feelings inside.
Weeks ago all hell breaks lose,
The secret is out, but a secret still.

I don't fall in love easily.
I don't have a reason for loving somebody.
I just love, love and love.
I just love, love and love.

My action shows that I don't care.
My heart is screaming that I do.
My lips don't smile when I see you.
My heart stop at the sight of you.

I'm use to feeling this way.
A one way love with no return.
I'm just happy it is better this turn.
At least you know that I'm in love with you.

Last Goodbye (published in 2015)

It never was, never is and never will be easy.
For me to let you go.
It kills deep inside to say my last goodbye.

Hey! Cheer up! Miss Intuition says.
It is okay, be strong and have courage.
I smile and reply. Yes, I will survive this last goodbye.

Time flies by,
I'm still here watching you go.
Nothing I can do.
Nothing I can say but my last goodbye.

Come on! Let's go! Miss Intuition begs
You can be happy, you will be bless.
I smile and reply. Yes, I will overcome this last goodbye.

Miss Intuition,
Do you think I will ever forget.
The memories, the smiles and joy.
The warm embraces and silly talks.
The dates of special events.
Can I leave it all behind with this last goodbye?

Rise up! Move forward! Miss Intuition cheers.
Remember the memories to push you ahead.
Remember the smiles and laughter to brighten your days.
I smile and reply. No more holding on, this is my last goodbye.

June holiday 2015

Wow... It is just amazing how a two week holiday could be gone just in a blink of an eye.

The first week of the holiday I was busy with my masters. I know right... Can you believe it... I have actually started my masters. OMG... I don't understand any of the lectures... All I could do it... God help me.

My classes were in Sabah. Yeap, I experienced the earthquake. My heart goes out to all the victims of the earthquake. Personally, my brother's GF house was badly effected by the earthquake as well.

I just don't understand people who are still making fun of the situation. There is a  saying, if you can't help with the problem don't be the problem.

Putting that aside, school is starting soon. I'm working hard juggling between marking papers, thinking about my masters assignments and trying to enjoy the remaining days of my holidays.... Hahahha.....

I guess this will be my latest update.
Till my next post. Bye!