No Ends by A.L Tan

I wonder, what is this?
What does it means?
Is it a phrase of life?
We're going through?

I enjoy the time we spent together.
Talking to each other.
Sharing with each other.
Opinions, concerns, hurts and cares.

I'll always want the talks to go on and on.
For it to never ever stop.
I have felt the hurt and misery.
When silence and emptiness become our mystery.

I accept that we can never be.
Whatever I wish for us to be.
I hope our conversation knows no ends.
Maybe we might be a bit more than friends?

But alas, I know it will never be.
So let's stay as it is.
You and me.

Broken by A.L Tan

It hurts so much that I'm starting to despise you.

I know it is not fair.

It's all my own doing.

You did nothing but I fell for you.

I'm so addicted to you.

I'm not okay.

I want your attention.

When you ignore me.

I'll be thinking of a million reason to stay positive.

I'll turn to God and pray for Him to take this pain away.

I'll cry in His presence,  begging Him to take my heart back from you.

I wrote poems after poems.

Hoping to write this love pain affair away.

It stays, doesn't seems to go away.

Even if you knew, what could you do?

Nothing. Yes, nothing.

I'm nothing to you.

When You're Gone by A.L Tan

You, only come when there's a need.
You, leave when you are done.

I, felt used each time you leave.
I, felt hurt each time you go.

You, return and my hope take flight. 
I, felt abandoned and despair when you leave.

I, never want to say goodbye.
You, leave without the reason why.

Tears by A.L Tan

                                  I
                              want
                            to cry. I 
                          want to cry
                        so hard.   Cry
                      out all  the  pain
                   of loving  you.  Cry
                 out   all  the   hurt  of
               loving  you.  Cry  out all
              the  frustration of  loving
               you.  Cry   out   all    the
                 misery of loving you.
                   Cry   out   all   this
                       love  of  loving
                                you.

I'm Still Into You by A.L Tan

I know it is wrong but I can't help it.
Oh God, I want it to go away.
Just leave.

I know it all depends on me.
No one is pressuring.
No one is pushing.
It's my choice, it's my feelings.

Countless time,  my heart says she's OK.
She's lying and I know it's true.
I can feel the pain, I can feel the hurt.

Emptiness seems to be fine in the past.
I was happy with emptiness.
Now emptiness means heartaches, brokenness and misery.

It's funny, I'm the one cheering you on.
Suggesting ideas to help you win her heart.
Quietly, I'm slowly dying inside my heart.

You might think that I'm done with you.
That my feelings for you are gone.
Well, I'm not.

I'm still into you.

You And I by A.L Tan

The fire in my heart is going out.
I'm struggling to keep the flame on.

I know I should just let the flame fade.
It's the right thing to do anyway.

My head is saying put it off.
My heart is saying no.

Once it goes, it's never coming back.

The truth is, I don't want it to go.
I don't want to lose this feeling of loving you.

You are far off from loving me.
You are far off from feeling me.

You put yourself in pain by loving another.
I put myself in pain by loving you.

You break your heart by giving it to another.
I break my heart by giving it to you.

You cry and weep when another does not return your love.
I cry and weep when you do not return my love.

You told me "You will find someone new."
My heart replied "All I want is you."

Ignorance by A.L Tan

Hey you!
Wake up!

Wake up from your self-made slumber!
Stop thinking that you are the one!

Stop day dreaming,
It's not real. Wake up! WAKE UP!

Shake the feelings OFF,
It's not worth the wait.

Stop with the 'let's give it another try!'
It won't happen.

Wake up! Wake up!
Dearie please wake up!
Wake up from your self-made dream.