Ache by A.L Tan

I feel being pushed away.

Do you still love me?
Do you still want me?

Love me whole heartily or don't love me at all.

A Little Bit More by A.L Tan

A little bit more silent than before
A little bit more distant than before

A little bit less closer than before
A little bit less excited than before

A little bit more waiting than before
A little bit more emptiness than before

A little bit More
A little bit mOre
A little bit moRe
A little bit morE

Bit by bit, Little by little
Just a little bit more as we grow apart.

Change by A.L Tan

I read back our texts.
It only spells CHANGE.

I'm Confuse by A.L Tan

As each day passes by
We slowly return
To our own life
To our usual schedule
To how it was before we fell in love

It seems that
Our love was just
a hiccup
a distraction
a rest from our typical life routine

How sad to think
That feelings
Of heartache
Of sadness
Of misery seems to be the future of us

Then again
It seems that
Faith
Hope
Love do fill this heart with promises for a great future with you.

I'm confuse.

He Claims He Loves Me by A.L Tan

There was a time
When I look at my phone
Frequent messages received
From that one person
Who claims he loves me.

Now a days
When I look at my phone
Blueticks and silence
From that one person
Who claims he loves me.

Post 34

Finally, you didn't reply my snaps anymore.
It's going to be the last conversation that we are going to have, I know.
You left.
I'm glad that I told you that I love you before our conversation ended today. I know, even if I were to tell you that I love you everyday, it won't mean a thing to you. You never told me what I mean to you,  well, what is there to tell if I am nothing to you, right?
I guess, Squishy and you are together again. You never hated her, even after you found your reason to hate her. How could you hate someone who you fell in love with at 14 and literally spend most of her time with you.
The next few days are going to be a living hell for me again as I start missing you, my tears are already falling as I type this, but I made a promise to God on Good Friday. I promise to let you go the moment you stopped replying and God made you stop replying the next day after I made the promise.
I also promised God, no more post about you. No post about you on Twitter, Facebook, Snapchat or Blogspot. So, this is my last post about you. I have break enough promises I made about you with God. It's time I fulfil my promises.
As cheesy as it sounds, in the future no matter where we are, who we become or who we are with, I know I'll still love you.
I wish you all the best in everything you do. Stay happy. Be prosperous in everything. Never leave God for love.
A part of me will love you. Always
#ily #m2k

Post 33

My mind is tired of telling my heart
That it should stop loving you
My heart just won't stop
It won't stop falling for you
My heart doesn't understand
That you don't love me
So, I'll just wait
And wait
And wait
Till the day my heart says
I love you no more
Till that day comes
I'll have to face my feelings for you alone
Because you have move on so far away
And I'm still stuck
Wondering the reason I fell for you
Figuring out ways to unloved you
And failing every time
To forget about you
To stop thinking about you
I tried so many times, so many ways
To let you go
But I can't, I can't, I CAN"T
I hate myself for loving you
My heart just can't remember to forget
I love you. Always.
#lmy #ily #imy #m2k