Dear God,
I think I finally understand how You feel, when Your child walk out of Your will, the perfect plan You have for them. The helpless feeling of not being able to reach out Your hands to pull them back and to tell them that it is the wrong path. It is because of the freedom of choice that You have given to mankind since the beginning of creation.
The aching feeling in the heart, the feeling of a big heavy rock being thrown at the heart and it hurts so bad, breaking the heart into a thousand pieces. It hurts so so bad. It hurts so bad knowing it is the wrong way, the wrong choice, the wrong decision. A decision that would lead them further away from You. Further from Your grace, further from Your love, further from Your protection, further from Your presence, further from Your blessing. Further.... just far, far, far away.
Why walk away from You? Crushing Your already broken heart in smaller pieces.
I have felt Your love, it is warm, secure, safe and brings smiles and laughter to my lips even in times of trouble. Why walk away? Will they find love that is able to satisfice? Can they find endless joy? Why walk away from an endless love that is accessible and freely given by You.
I have experienced your consult, protection and encouragement. I'm able to sustain the hurricanes of life under Your protection, made decision that I don't regret by taking heed of Your advise and continue to push on to live with the endless encouragement from You. Only You. Why walk away? Why seek advise from others who are also seeking for answers.
It hurts to see Your child walk away and turn from You. Now I know how badly it hurts, like a scar that is being slash again and again before it can heal. I as Your child too don't know what to do or say but to pray that You will show me the way to lead my brothers, sisters and the lost back to You.
Anna
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