Post 34

Finally, you didn't reply my snaps anymore.
It's going to be the last conversation that we are going to have, I know.
You left.
I'm glad that I told you that I love you before our conversation ended today. I know, even if I were to tell you that I love you everyday, it won't mean a thing to you. You never told me what I mean to you,  well, what is there to tell if I am nothing to you, right?
I guess, Squishy and you are together again. You never hated her, even after you found your reason to hate her. How could you hate someone who you fell in love with at 14 and literally spend most of her time with you.
The next few days are going to be a living hell for me again as I start missing you, my tears are already falling as I type this, but I made a promise to God on Good Friday. I promise to let you go the moment you stopped replying and God made you stop replying the next day after I made the promise.
I also promised God, no more post about you. No post about you on Twitter, Facebook, Snapchat or Blogspot. So, this is my last post about you. I have break enough promises I made about you with God. It's time I fulfil my promises.
As cheesy as it sounds, in the future no matter where we are, who we become or who we are with, I know I'll still love you.
I wish you all the best in everything you do. Stay happy. Be prosperous in everything. Never leave God for love.
A part of me will love you. Always
#ily #m2k

Post 33

My mind is tired of telling my heart
That it should stop loving you
My heart just won't stop
It won't stop falling for you
My heart doesn't understand
That you don't love me
So, I'll just wait
And wait
And wait
Till the day my heart says
I love you no more
Till that day comes
I'll have to face my feelings for you alone
Because you have move on so far away
And I'm still stuck
Wondering the reason I fell for you
Figuring out ways to unloved you
And failing every time
To forget about you
To stop thinking about you
I tried so many times, so many ways
To let you go
But I can't, I can't, I CAN"T
I hate myself for loving you
My heart just can't remember to forget
I love you. Always.
#lmy #ily #imy #m2k

Post 32

I know, one day. One day, God will answer my prayer. He will help me love you in the right way. For now, I need to go through this. No matter how hard the struggle is. #lmy #M2K

Post 31

I know my heart still loves you.
My heart leaps each time we chat and when I see you.
My heart breaks each time the chat ends.

Every goodnight & okay sounds like a goodbye and that you might leave me forever.

I'm afraid of losing you.

Post 30

Okay kills conversation.

Post 29

Oh well, you found the ILY & IMY messages that I sent to you. So, x more ILY & IMY messages to your snapchat anymore. At least you know that ILY & IMY.

Before I end this post, I LOVE YOU & I MISS YOU M2K. 

Post 28

I hope you will be fine soon. I know you are not fine now. There's something bothering you. I don't know what it is but I can guess who it is with. I hope things will be fine again for the both of you. I just want you to be happy. I can't do anything, only to pray for you. Be happy and okay soon alright?

Post 27

Well, I finally let the bullet drop. I think it is the time already.....  That was too much. What's the use of being on duty if the duty was not carried out?????? There is no point of being there just because you are order to be there. When no one is looking, then you slack....  It sucks you know....  You are not the victim, it is other people who needs to cover up your shit that you leave behind for not doing your work properly. I'm glad that I told you off. Someone has to. I don't want to be the one but you leave me no choice. Let me be the bad guy....  Meh...  I don't really care. Yes, I said that I forgive you in the previous post,  that doesn't mean I need to close one eye on the future mistake that you will be doing that will have an effect on me. I'm not taking another hit of your shit, I'm tired of being smelly. So....  Yeah...  I hope you would turn over a new leaf when you move to your crap island. Peace out.

Post 26

I got very pissed off with a co worker this week. Actually, I think it has been building up since last year. Well, I think enough is enough. Thank God, I managed to hold my temper in and thank God for students around me who understands the situation. I always hold on to the idea that our situation moulds us to become the person we are today. My students are frequently told by me that the Miss Anna they get depends on their reaction towards me. However, I came to realise today that it is not entirely true. Who and what we become today is totally depended on us. It's our choice to follow our mood or to be logical in the situation we are in. I thank God that He gave me the strength to do what is right, if I were to choose to follow my mood, I would have love to abandon my duty as my co worker did. I thank God, He has been gracious, He answered my prayer when I decided to accept His calling for me to be a teacher. My prayer was for God to always give me enough love to love. He has never fail to help me see things through His eyes in situations I don't feel like loving, I know it will never get easy in the future. Loving people is a complicated thing, it will never get easy. However, with God's help I know I can do it. To love also means to forgive even when it is hard. So, before my co-worker leaves to a new place of duty, I sincerely ask forgiveness from God for being angry with my co-worker and on my part too I'll forgive. I know there are plenty of other co-workers with the same attitude as well and this same situation will bound to happen again and again, but I know, I trust and I'll hold tight to God to carry me through each time. So..... peace out!!!!