Will I? by A.L Tan

Break my heart twice a day.
Shame on me, shame on me.

Come and take this feeling away.
It should go, it should not stay.

It hurts so deep, no words to explain.
No wounds to see but the pain is there.

Where is the cure for this love pain?
It's you my dear but you were never here.

I'm not alright, I'm not okay.
I'm too in love with you my dear.

This love is weird and stubborn in a way.
It has made up its mind to stay this way.

I really hope this love will move away.
However, I also want this love to stay.

If this love do go away.
Will I be alright?  Will I be okay?

Love Me Back by A.L Tan

You may deny and tell me no.
I know you long for another more.

Cover it up with smirks and smile.
Do it all day if that's what you want.
Your love is not for me but her.

It hurts my heart that's for sure.
Just like you, I'll cover it up with smirks.
I'll just continue with it everyday.
Denying I love you more each day.

Each day I look at you from afar.
Wishing that we were not hearts apart.
On days when moon and stars align.
You'll walk up to me maybe from behind.
Call my name and I'm in cloud nine.

I'll think of work and stuff to do.
Just to get my mind off you.
The busyness keeps my mind off you.
But my heart reminds me of you.

If only my heart can obey.
The things my mind frequently say.
Let this love go,  it's not to stay.

I'm just waiting for the day to say.
I love you no more my heart says.

Just Enough by A.L Tan

All I want is to see your face.
You turned and saw me stare.

All I want is to see your smile.
Your smile even if it's not for me.

All I want is just a peep.
Your sight made my heart skip a beat.

All I want is to hear your sound.
Just a whisper to know you are around.

All I want is to love you dear.
All I want is you.

Okay Hurts by A.L Tan

Here I am waiting.
Waiting for the familiar ring.

Nothing.
Not a sound.
Not even an imaginary ring.

I'm running out of reason.
Entering a heartbreaking season.

Heartbreaking not from waiting.
But delays in replying.

Finally I'm hearing.
That familiar ring.

Adding more pain to wounds of delays.
Was a simple and innocent 'okay'.

No Ends by A.L Tan

I wonder, what is this?
What does it means?
Is it a phrase of life?
We're going through?

I enjoy the time we spent together.
Talking to each other.
Sharing with each other.
Opinions, concerns, hurts and cares.

I'll always want the talks to go on and on.
For it to never ever stop.
I have felt the hurt and misery.
When silence and emptiness become our mystery.

I accept that we can never be.
Whatever I wish for us to be.
I hope our conversation knows no ends.
Maybe we might be a bit more than friends?

But alas, I know it will never be.
So let's stay as it is.
You and me.

Broken by A.L Tan

It hurts so much that I'm starting to despise you.

I know it is not fair.

It's all my own doing.

You did nothing but I fell for you.

I'm so addicted to you.

I'm not okay.

I want your attention.

When you ignore me.

I'll be thinking of a million reason to stay positive.

I'll turn to God and pray for Him to take this pain away.

I'll cry in His presence,  begging Him to take my heart back from you.

I wrote poems after poems.

Hoping to write this love pain affair away.

It stays, doesn't seems to go away.

Even if you knew, what could you do?

Nothing. Yes, nothing.

I'm nothing to you.

When You're Gone by A.L Tan

You, only come when there's a need.
You, leave when you are done.

I, felt used each time you leave.
I, felt hurt each time you go.

You, return and my hope take flight. 
I, felt abandoned and despair when you leave.

I, never want to say goodbye.
You, leave without the reason why.